Hey.
I am forgiving me for falling today.
I am not often clumsy with my own emotions,
So when I spilled them all over you,
I wasn\’t sure of the consequences
Until I was dead awake
At three in the morning,
Regretting everything,
Seeing you behind closed eyelids,
Heart drumming in rhythm to that song you\’d sing
When we both would need
A really good laugh
(like I want to now).
I am forgiving me
For not trying to do shit about it.
I mean, you were an old soul,
A little unconventional, but charming nonetheless.
And I? I am a closet introvert
Hiding behind masks of clowns and puppet masters, because
I don\’t think you\’d like me in my
Silence.
I am forgiving me,
Slowly but surely,
As I am watching you slip away miles,
Past highways in airplanes, probably
Finding peace in another man\’s arms
Universities away.
And just like you,
I am trying to find peace
Too.
By Danny Cepul